Saturday, March 17, 2007


Saturday afternoon.

Have you ever felt like your life is centered around a whirl, and that you can barely stop to catch your breath?

Have you ever felt like each day has gone by so fast, and yet you feel like last Thursday happened a month back?

Have you ever gone a period where every single person who says hi to you follows it up with, "You look tired. Are you alright?", and yet you don't notice that you are?

And then you take a break. You take a day off. Away from it all, but only figuratively, because the spinning never stops. You just step away from it.

And the day starts out with meticulous planning and timing, and attempts at fixing broken words.

And then you slow down, and you feel as if you cannot be bothered anymore.

And then your head hurts, because everything has become too much, and you feel left behind. You almost just can't be stuffed.

Then,
You step into an empty room.
And you breathe.

And you wash your face and feel the worry lines rinse away.
Your shoulders can be eased; the burden has been lifted.

And then you fall into rhythm and motion.
Once.
Twice.
Again.
Again.

And then you lift up your hands and just pray.
Sometimes, when it is quiet, and you're sure that no one else is there, you can feel your heart speak to you. Or hear it say something greater than you ever imagined.

And you can just cry.

But the rest of life awaits you on the other side of the door.

This time, though, when you step out, you will take your time.
And breathe.

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this has been a rant by Syazwina Saw at 4:29 pm

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