Sunday, September 10, 2006


I see. Now I see.

Assalamualaikum wrh. Wbt.

I was sitting in the middle of the room. Almost at the border between them and us.

Some of them were familiar faces from months past. The others were familiar faces from daily encounters.

And all of us sat in that room, them in the front, and us in the back, as it was always meant to be. Equal and together but separated with only subtle boundaries in between. All of us with our specified space.

Our lives were overlapping over each other, and it showed.

Old friends laughing with the new. Jostling shoulders, jesting smiles and inside jokes intermingled in the evening air.

I remembered a time when it was all a bit more confusing, and a bit more wrong. Where we felt as though it was alright, but it wasn’t. I look before me, at old friends, and I cannot begrudge them the change they are going through – the new light I see emblazoned in their eyes. The clearer faces; the easy smiles, although they may not be directed at me. I am glad. Because I am sharing in their light from afar.

On my left and on my right are new acquaintances; fast friends. New bonds made and tested every single day. We share the same aims and the same laughter, and we move as one, even when apart. We are individuals with one aim. We celebrate each others’ uniqueness and learn from each other.

And time ticked away, on and ever onwards. But for some reason – truly only God knows why – it did not strangle us or threaten us into haste. Time became our friend for that while.

I remember a moment when I was frustrated at them, and how apart they seemed from me.

Now, I recognize the silently passing emotions between them. I see the ties that bind them, much as ours did us together.

I cannot begrudge them the light. Not anymore.

With God’s will, I step a bit further ahead from where I was, into that waiting known.

By time,

Indeed, mankind is in loss,

Except for those who have believed and done the righteous deeds and advised each other to truth and advised each other to patience.

[Al-Asr (Time) : 1-3]

Wassalamualaikum.

this has been a rant by Syazwina Saw at 10:02 pm

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