Sunday, September 24, 2006


Going round full circle.

Assalamualaikum wrh. wbt.

So. Here it has come. Here it is again.

Ramadhan al-Mubarak.

To me, this particular month has very special meaning connotated to it.

Coming across Ramadhan again, means that I have somewhat come full circle.

Last Ramadhan was the first that I had truly ever experienced - where the feeling, the emotion, the surrender and the desperation was there. The Ramadhans before that simply faded from memory.

Last Ramadhan was plentiful in its wonders, and sweet in its delights.

Last Ramadhan, my faith felt renewed and reborn. Like my heart had been scrubbed hard and my slate wiped clean.

Last Syawal, I longed for Ramadhan again. I dreaded the passing of Ramadhan. I wanted it to last.

How many of us take note of how much easier it is to be nicer, more considerate, more gentle, less inhabiting and more tolerant during Ramadhan?

How many of us pause before doing something we know is wrong, because it just occured to us that the urge is no longer from the Devil a.k.a. syaitan, but from our own nafs?

And how many of us make the right decision?

And how many of us remember that that is where the greatest struggle is: That honourable sturggle within?

MasyaAllah.

The seven doors of Paradise are now open wide, awaiting our supplications, our du'as, our good deeds, and our sincerest of intentions.

Dare we put it all to waste?

I am not smart or eloquent enough to elaborate on the meaning of the saum (i.e. the fast). But I can, however, remind myself to not let this Ramadhan pass by without my taking full advantage of it and the opportunities it gives us all.

The opportunities for greatness in the matters that matter, insyaAllah :)

Do forgive my wrongs, where I have erred. Do place it in your heart to let go of my inconsistencies, harsh words typed out in thoughtless/emotional haste, and where it seems, at times, like the attack is too direct and too precise for you to handle. Forgive me time and again. If you do not see/feel the consequences of your generousity now, you'll see it one day soon, insyaAllah.

I
am
praying
for
you
out
there.

(And for myself as well.)

For happiness, now or later.
For clarity, now or soon.
For hidayah, when the time is right (hopefully soon).
For patience, whenever it's needed.
For calm, whenever trouble brews in our hearts.
For strength, to be called upon whenever/wherever.
For intelligence, to choose the path that's right.
For ukhuwah, the pull that draws us together.
For Love, divine and true.
For truth, to prevail over injustice.
For Islam, the mercy for the worlds.

Amin.

Have a wonderful Ramadhan, people. Make it the best one ever~!

Wassalamualaikum.

this has been a rant by Syazwina Saw at 3:59 pm

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